First

I've started many-a-blog in the past.  I hope to actually remember to use this one.  I'm not really sure why I'm starting this one.  I guess I'll be using it to "vent" as they say.  I have only really opened up to a few people in my lifetime.  None of which I am currently in close contact with.  Perhaps this will help me get outside of my head once in a while.  I've been finding that leaving myself to my own thoughts is kind of dangerous.  I get too wrapped up in bullshit and there is no one to unwind me.  I'm really going to try to use this to be open with my feelings.  Sometimes I will be whiny, I'm sure.  I am taking the risk of sounding like a angst-ridden fourteen year old.  This is for myself anyway.  If I am too embarrassed by previous posts I may delete them.  I'll try to be understanding of myself.  I was feeling what I was feeling, I don't want to cheapen my emotions.  I'm trying to figure out myself.  Maybe I'll figure out others along the way.  This whole thing sounds way too melancholy. It's really not that bad. 

Alcohol on my hands, I got plans to ditch myself and get outside 
Dancing women throwing plates, decapitating their laughing dates 
Swirling chickens caught in flight, out of focus and much to bright 
Coming down, shiny teeth, game show suckers trying to breathe 
But I got a drug and I got the bug and I got something better than love 
How you like me now? Pretty good 
Going on, feeling strong